Little Dolphin

I bought this for E today after his big day starting school. I just got it because I know how much he loves dolphins not even thinking how ironic it was.

Today. The 1st Day of Preschool

Today was huge. Evan took right to going the school. I watched him get overwhelmed by it all but he followed all the other kids as they left "the yellow room" and went to the "purple room" for music and back again to their classroom (the yellow room). E is a "Coyote". The school is amazing and do so much with the kids. I am thrilled to be a part of it but it is so hard to see your baby stepping into this stage of life. He was exhausted once we hit the car but didn't take a nap. Steven is off all week so we get to have some nice time as family as we are all adjusting to our new early schedule and the fact that our little guy is going out of the house for the first time.

Tomorrow-1st Day of Preschool

E starts preschool tomorrow. I have had a bit of mixed emotions the past few days. It has been three years since E was born? I still can't believe how fast this time has flown. I miss our days together walking and adventuring. I wouldn't give up that time with him for anything. I feel very lucky that I had the first 2.5 years with him pretty exclusively and then for the past 8 months to of had M to have E spend his few mornings with her. She has been amazing with him and I hope we keep in touch with her in the years to come. This past week I have had doubts and have thought that maybe I should of waited to start E until next Fall. He would be almost 4 instead of now when he is just 3. I also keep thinking I wish it was a 3 day program and not a 5 day. It just seems like so much for a little guy being the first time away from home. My mind races with should haves and maybes. I just always want to do the right thing by him. He is a treasure and I value his education and his first view of the world so much. I do think I have found a place that is wonderful. A place that shares our vision for learning and freedom. Freedom of life and freedom of thought. A place where I hope that the beginnings of a love for learning with ignite within my little boy and a place where he can build the beginning of an inner strength and confidence that is all his own. I hope for him that he finds great friends and love here and the experiences will bring him great joy.

I love that I can bring him each and everyday and he is only a few doorsteps away from me. Tonight I was talking to E about tomorrow and all that it will bring. I told him that when we wake up in the morning we will get dressed and take him to school. As I was starting to explain more, he stopped me and said, "Go to school now?!". I think he is excited more than I imagined. He is ready. The more I see he is ready and is excited it gives me such peace that this is the right thing for him.

New Sayings

E has been amazing with his commnication. He seems to excel with speech. He just gets it. He will say things and put together phrases that I have no idea how he understands the connections. Lately, I have found joy in a few new phrases and I don't want to forget them.

"Mama, Isn't that amazing? That's amazing. Amazing Momma?"

"What about that? Momma, what about that?!"

" I have an idea! Momma, I have an idea".

Three Years Ago...

I bought my baby boy home from St. John's hospital in Santa Monica, California.

Robots and Tales

E and I were driving to pick up some last minute holiday food. E asked for some toys to play with on our trip. Scambling to find something in my bag, I noticed a tape measure on the floor of the front seat. "Do you want to play with this tape measure on our way?" I asked. "Yeaaaah" he replies. We were driving down the road when E says from the backseat. "Look Momma, it is a robot with one arm!". I see that he is referring to the tape measure and have to laugh and say, "Wow!". He goes on to tell me it is a friendly robot and a robot that has a tail.

Yesterday, we were in the car waiting for Dada and E see a large building next to us. Look it is a skyscraper! He tells me that his friend lives there and that there is a firehouse there. He said he need to throw them food.

He cracks me up. His imagination is running wild these days. I love talking to him!

Dear Evan-36 Months Old

Evan,

You are three! I cannot believe it. I look back over this blog and see all of my letters and I can't believe three years has gone by. You make time go by so fast with all of the joy you bring to me and Dada. We are so proud of you!

This has been a full-packed month. First of all you potty trained yourself all in one day. We have been working on it for a couple of months. But the Sunday after Thanksgiving, you woke up and said, "Mama, no more diapers. Underwear". So-that is what we have done. I had no idea the night before would be my last diaper change with you. The first three nights I used pullups on you (thinner, pull-down style diaper". On the third night, you said, "Mama, no pull ups. Underwear." Do you know what? You don't need them. All you need is underwear. We had a few night time accidents but not very many. You sleep through the night and use only underwear. You are so proud of yourself. It was an amazing experience to watch you do all of this. You are getting to be such a big boy.

You like to test your boundries and will often tell us what you would like to have us do. You will say, "Dada play with me. Mama come and watch". You crack us up. You love to play and want to play all of the time. You love your trucks and trains the most. You love playing someone gets hurt and needs to go to the hospital. We will play that over and over again. You are getting good on your Skuut bike and wear a helmet now. You are getting so fast. You have excellent balance. We still go to My Gym and I think it has been good for you to learn so many physical things. You love the trampaline. You like to close your bedroom door to keep me inside. You will place my yoga brick on the inside of the door as a barrier. It is priceless!

Our days consist of waking up between 7-8am. Breakfast and then watch Thomas. Two times a week you spend the day with Dada. Three mornings 9-1pm you spend with Meleana. I am with you all weekend and everyday after 1pm. It has really worked for us. You are going to start to preschool Jan 3rd. We went to a holiday program there this past week. You were nervous and held on to me tightly. You hid your face in my chest. I kept you on my lap. Then, Sofia came out and all of the kids started to sing. Sofia came over and got you and brought you up to sing and ring bells. You did. It was fun to see you enjoying being with all of those kids. It is a precious place and I am so happy we can go there. I hope it will be an absolute joy for you and a wonderful foundation for school. It is steps away from my studio so now you and I can go to "work" together each day. You will be there from 9-1 and I will pick you up and we will go home together at 1pm. It is so perfect. I feel so lucky and I really wanted a place where we could walk together there. That is what we have!

We had your thrid birthday at the carousel at the SM pier. You love that place so much. It was such a great party. I think you had so much fun. All of your piglet friends came to give you their wishes and it was truly a celebration!!

I love you my sweet son. You are a constant joy in my life. I am forever thankful for you.

Mama